Hi ya everyone. I was going to post this on the day,but the stupid phone co made a error cut our phone off. But really the way I was feeling I don't think I could have. My pen pals know that April 25 marked the 1 year anniversary of my sister Stephanie's murder. The police still haven't made any arrests. It's hard for me to believe that Steph has been gone a whole year already!! Feels like any moment she should come walking through our door. I guess it's because I want it to happen so badly.
Tried to hide my tears. To not show much emotion about it. Tried to stay strong for my mom. I was afraid if mom saw me crying about Stephanie it'd only make her do the same. Mom has already lost 1 child my sister Sara on Jan 6,94. Sara died in my mom's arms. I tried to push Steph's death out of my mind so I wouldn't cry because at first the very thought of her or picture would send me into tears. There never has been a day gone by were I don't think of my dear sister Stephanie. I'd have dreams about her then wake with tears streaming down my face. I don't if anybody has heard the song Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton, but that song moves me and my mom into tears.
April 24 mom was talking to me. She looked at my calendar said kinda sadly well you know what tomorrow is. I couldn't hold my saddens in any longer. I just bawled my eyes out and hugged my mom a lot. Mom and I had a long talk about it. I feel a little better. Mom reminded me that Stephanie is in heaven now and she is not suffering in pain like she was here. Stephanie had illnesses and was in awful pain. I believe the hardest thing in the world is to go through losing a loved one. I just have to take it one day at a time.
Tears In Heaven By Eric Clapton
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.
Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
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Dear Kimberly, I can only immagine how much you suffered and are suffering for your sister death. I'm really sorry for that but remember she's always there in your heart.
Thank you Laura. I'll always remember that I carry Stephanie and all the memories of her in my heart.
dear kimberly,
i'm sorry to hear that you are having a rough year. i hope that you and your family are doing well. stay strong and keep her memory close to your heart.
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