Blue Angels Fly Over Me.

Hi ya everybody!
I'm so glad that the weekend is over for one reason jets! Barksdale Air Force Base had their air show this weekend. The base is right across the Red River from us in Bossier City. One of the attractions of the air show was the U.S. Navy Blue Angels. The Blue Angels had to practice on the Thursday before the show. They flied over our house A LOT every time they passed by you'd think that any minute they might crash into the house!!! That's how loud they are. It would always scary me when I would hear them. I didn't even need to go to the air show I was getting one from the comfort of my own front yard.

The Blue Angels 

I'm testing putting pics up. I'll start with a nice pic of Darren. :) 

My mom is home!!

Hi ya everyone!
My mom came home from the hospital yesterday around 2:15 pm. I'm sooo happy that she is back!!! I had missed her horrorably while we were apart. As you can tell by the way I write about her me and mom are very,very close. The docs got this brace thingy on her right hand early that morning. Mom is a little down right now. She's worried about her hand if she'll really be able to write again.

I can see why what if one day you woke up to find the hand you use the most is now useless?!! For me the two things I fear the worst that could happen to me is my right hand becoming useless and losing my sight. But the docs sounded hopefully about it getting back to normal. And I can tell it's getting better because she can move some of her fingers better then when they had first curled up. If anybody would like to could you say just a small prayer that my mom's right hand gets back to normal. I know that I will everyday.

Mom in hospital

Hi everyone. My mom is in the hospital right now and I'm really missing her. My mom is my whole world if not for her I wouldn't be the person I am today. That's why I'm writing in blue because I really feel it. I know mom she is missing her kids like crazy. It's the one thing in the whole world she can't stand is to be a way from her kids. You know she's a mother she worries over everything about us. When I say us I mean me, my brother Randy 14, Zachary 13 he is mentally challenged.

Mom's fingers on her right hand just over night curled up on her. She can't write with her hand as it is. Mom went in the hospital on the 9th and hopefully she'll be coming home sometime tomorrow. The doctors said she had another stroke. She had her first stroke on Oct 28,03. Today they fitted her for some sort of brace to put on her hand to help straighten out her fingers. Tomorrow they'll put it on her and then she can leave. I mean while mom has been there the docs ran all the tests they can do on her. She had a CAT scan and a MRI which mom is deathly afraid of when they have to do one. Knowing my mom she is NOT going to stay another night in the hospital so those docs better put that brace on and get everything ready. Because brace or not once mom decides that she is leaving there is no way to stop her. LOL

For Mother's Day we got her some beautiful red tulips. Mom just adores tulips!! She'd told me not to get her anything for Mother's Day. Yeah right like I wouldn't get my mom anything. It was one of only a few times I didn't listen to her. LOL

Stephanie Sava 5/28/73 4/25/04

Hi ya everyone. I was going to post this on the day,but the stupid phone co made a error cut our phone off. But really the way I was feeling I don't think I could have. My pen pals know that April 25 marked the 1 year anniversary of my sister Stephanie's murder. The police still haven't made any arrests. It's hard for me to believe that Steph has been gone a whole year already!! Feels like any moment she should come walking through our door. I guess it's because I want it to happen so badly.

Tried to hide my tears. To not show much emotion about it. Tried to stay strong for my mom. I was afraid if mom saw me crying about Stephanie it'd only make her do the same. Mom has already lost 1 child my sister Sara on Jan 6,94. Sara died in my mom's arms. I tried to push Steph's death out of my mind so I wouldn't cry because at first the very thought of her or picture would send me into tears. There never has been a day gone by were I don't think of my dear sister Stephanie. I'd have dreams about her then wake with tears streaming down my face. I don't if anybody has heard the song Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton, but that song moves me and my mom into tears.

April 24 mom was talking to me. She looked at my calendar said kinda sadly well you know what tomorrow is. I couldn't hold my saddens in any longer. I just bawled my eyes out and hugged my mom a lot. Mom and I had a long talk about it. I feel a little better. Mom reminded me that Stephanie is in heaven now and she is not suffering in pain like she was here. Stephanie had illnesses and was in awful pain. I believe the hardest thing in the world is to go through losing a loved one. I just have to take it one day at a time.

Tears In Heaven By Eric Clapton

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.